This is my letter to some of my favourite DID YouTubers. Feel free to read this even if you aren't one of the systems I have addressed this to as it may give you a better understanding of what it is these guys do and how it is helpful for those in this community. Each letter will start by stating which system it is addressed to so that its easy to understand who im writing this for. These are my raw thoughts and feelings towards these incredible people and are solely made up of my opinions. I just wanted to say thank you to those who have helped me along the way as I don't know where I would be without them.
I cant afford to send letters to everyone so this is my way around that.
Note: This post will be very long as I am writing to 5 systems!
Multiplicity and me, DissociaDID, BoBo and Co, The Entropy System, and Team Piñata.
Dear Multiplicity and me,
You guys where the first DID channel that I found. Jess's videos made it very easy for me to come to terms with my symptoms and helped me decide to get some help. In a way it was like she held my hand as I told my therapist at the time what I was going through and y life really did change from that point. I was able to get the help I needed and move forward in my recovery. I was in a very dark place when I stumbled upon the channel and it really has changed my life for the better.
Meeting the boys has been something that I will never forget. I remember watching the original meet the alters video and my whole world felt like it made sense. I could see the similarities in the boys in some of my own alters and I made me feel like I wasn't alone in this. And im not the only one who loves you guys. Vicki feels a real connection to Ed and looks unto him so much. When she is out I often 'come back to' and Ed is on my screen. She is only 11 but our main 'persecutor' and admires Ed for being able to improve so much and now be such an important and loved member of the system. You guys have impacted each of us in our own ways and its helped us grow as a system.
Seeing how happy Jess and Gaz are has been so amazing ashen I first was figuring this all out I thought there was no way in hell that I could be happy with someone. Gaz you do an amazing job at helping Jess and the boys and you are someone that my boyfriend admires dearly.
Thanks to your educational content we have been able to share it with family and friends for them to get a great understanding and acceptance of the disorder and that in itself has been major for us. I cant thank you guys enough for everything you do for this community.
Thank you so much for inspiring me to make my own blog in hopes of ending the stigma around DID and other mental disorders. Thank you to Jamie for being so caring and genuine. Thank you to Jake for being so open and real. Thank you to Ollie for making my littles feel like that have a big brother. Thank you to Ed for being nothing but himself without apology. And the biggest thank you to Jess and GazGaz for being someone the coolest and most incredible people I know of.
Im going to stop writing before I cry haha
I cant thank you enough.
Jen x
Dear DissociaDID,
Wow. Where do I start. YOU ARE INCREDIBLE! I go to your channel feeling dissociated and blurry and leave feeling inspired, impowerd, and happy. I love seeing all of you and seeing you be authentically yourselves. Nin has such a beautiful personality and its like im in the room with her. She is so strong and present that its so nice for us to feel like we are right there with you.
Nadia has the most contagious smile that I have ever seen. We could literally be balling our eyes our and then see Nadia and its just impossible to be sad haha. Kyle has made the males in my system feel less isolated and more valid. One of my boys, Lucas, struggles badly with dysphoria, but when he sees Kyle out in the body he feels like its okay to front in this body because here is someone else in the same position, doing it. When Jade is around or fronting on your videos, it draws my protectors forward and I feel like I'm surrounded by the strongest people in the world and I never feel safer.
Your channel was a major inspiration into this blog because I wanted to have the same impact that you had on me to others out there. You make me feel like im not alone anymore, that im 100% valid, and that everything will be okay. I found you quite early on in my journey and I am so glad that I did because you guys have really changed my life.
I bought 4 stickers from your perch store a little while ago and whenever I look at them on my laptop, bookcase, or wherever, I just get so emotional and proud to be part of this community. I also got one for my therapist and she loves it!
When I'm having a rough day I know that I can turn on my laptop and watch you guys for hours if I need to. Its like having a friend who actually gets it. I cant express how much I love you guys and how much I appreciate you and everything you do.
Thank you for everything :)
Jen x
Dear Bobo and co,
You guys are the people we relate to the most. We typically go to your channel when we are really really dissociated, not because it grounds us or anything, but because it allows us to just dissociate with you and have no judgement. Its like being there with you and just being able to let go of everything and be okay with being zoned out. Its also comforting to have someone there who is quite similar to me just being themselves and existing. I don't know if this is making sense but you guys are basically like a safety blanket for us and its really nice to have that.
You guys show us an important part of DID that not many people will show. All the confusion, dissociation, switches, doubt and anxiety make your videos so raw and real; that's something that I relate to. Like how the educational channels are important, your channel has its own place too and you are all doing an incredible job.
Another thing I want tp mention is that its great to hear you talk about things other than DID because it shows that there is more to each of you than just being alters. Hearing about the charity shops, your hair colours, artwork, time with friends, your finances, and just your life in general, is just so helpful because it really shows that you are just a regular person (or people haha) and it just gives all your videos such a homely feel.
One of my alters, Lucas, feels close with Toast and thinks of him as a good friend. Despite them never even talking, Lucas says that he thinks they would get along really well. He is 14 and just cant get enough of your videos. In short, toast makes him feel normal and less alone.
Just try to remember that you guys are incredible and what you do is amazing for the community. We all love you guys so much and wish we could meet you some day.
Lots of hugs,
Jen x
Dear The Entropy System,
Firstly, my therapist loves you guys hahaha. I show her your videos all the time and she then shows them to other clients and has told me that you have helped so many people. The one that was most helpful being the pennywise and trauma video.
Thanks to you guys I have been able to come to terms with the disorder much easier and accept that i'm just different and that's okay. The way you explain things just clicks with us and makes so much sense.
You have helped us understand integration and made the idea of it less intimidating. While that isn't the path our system will be following it was something that was still important to learn about and I thank you so much for that.
Seeing you guys whenever you upload just makes me smile because its someone else living like me. Whoever it may be on our screen that day, we are just so happy to see you guys.
Thank you for being here and being another part of the fight against stigma. You are all amazing!
I hope yo guys are doing well and thanks again for everything you do.
Jen x
Dear Team Piñata,
YOU GUYS HAVE THE BEST INTRO SONG EVER! I don't know if its from anything or what but omg it just makes me so happy and I don't know why haha.
Okay moving on, I wanted to thank you guys for showing us that we can be ourselves and that we are valid. I want to thank a few of you guys individually so I hope that is okay :)
Jeremy, you are just the sweetest and most gentle person ever. You remind me a lot of Cassy (one of my alters), because despite your gentle and soft nature, you are a strong and amazing protector who knows what they are doing. I struggled quite a bit with labelling Cassy as a protector because she wasn't the typical 'strong', 'loud', 'stern' protector that a lot of systems have. But you showed me that she is valid in herself and doesn't need to be a 'cookie cutter' protector because she is her own person. Thank you for showing me that.
Nan, you have showed me that relationships with happy endings are possible with DID. You are a great host and I can just see how much you care about not only your system, but all systems in this community. Thank you for being here.
Nadeen, Seeing how you have grown and developed yourself is amazing. You are so strong and powerful and have a hard job to do but I can tell that you do it extremely well. Your strength and resilience made you into who you are now and you are incredible.
So yeah, you guys are absolutely amazing and have done so much for the mental health community. Thank you all for sharing your lives with us and being so strong.
Jen x
Okat so tats the end of the letters for now. There are a few more systems I want to write to but this is all I could do for now (Its hard to write while dissociated haha). I will write the other lathers in the future :)
Once again this is straight form my heart and is full of emotion. These are my thoughts and feelings towards some of those I this community and I mean every work I said.
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Thank you for reading and I hope that you have an amazing day,
Jen xx
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