Hey guys, I'm going to be honest with you. I have not had time to come up with a theme for this weeks post but I didn't want to let you guys down by not having anything up. I was trying to figure out what to write about but its just stressing me out so ill just give you guys an update on how I'm going.
I have great news! I graduated school. So I no longer have to spend 6 hours a day in a place that makes me depressed! School has always been a struggle for me and to finally be done with it feels amazing! I am proof that you can get through hard situations because damn did I struggle everyday. I am so proud of myself for getting past that stage in my life and I know that you guys will be proud of me too.
Another thing I wanted to mention is that I have just completed a cert 2 in hair! This means I am able to work in a salon. I love hairdressing and am passionate about how different a good hairstyle can make you feel. I gained so much confidence when I began to dye my hair and I want to share that confidence with others. As soon as I finished school I went out with resumes to all the salons in my area and I got a call back a week later asking me to come in for a trial!!!! I have just finished that trial and will be on the roster from next week as an apprentice! This is so exciting and I cant wait to do what I love.
Also...I have purple hair! I wasn't planning on dying my hair for a little while but I messed up my pink hair and needed to fix it. So now I have bright purple hair that I did myself and it looks amazing. On the topic of appearance I now have 2 tattoos and am getting another one at the end of this year!
As far as therapy goes, I am going every 3 weeks (approximately) and it is going very well. I am still looking for a new psychiatrist to prescribe my medication as my last one was awful. I'm hopeful that I will find someone soon but so far I am just going to my GP (doctor) for medication.
With my blog I have started to do weekly shoutouts on instagram (@diaryofapsycho1) called #psychoshoutouts and they feature the best mental health related accounts that could be helpful to others. This is a way to bring the mental health community together and will hopefully start more conversations about mental illness.
Something else that I wanted to discuss that cant have a post of its own is my blogs name. My blog, as you know, is called 'Diary of a "Psycho"' and this has confused a few people. Why would I use a stigmatised word when I want to break the stigma???? Well the simple answer is that it is a way to laugh at or shine light on the names and labels placed on those with mental illness. I am not psychotic but not all psychotic people are the mass murdering stereotype you see in the media. Having mental illness doesn't make you any more likely to be 'crazy'. So yes I know that the word 'Psycho' is in bad taste but that is kind of the point I am trying to make.
My anxiety is getting much better and I am able to go out everyday, talk to new people, go to work, uphold relationships, eat proper meals, and even try new things. My depression is good for the most part but I sill have rough days as you can imagine. I still dissociate on the daily and have many switches but that is always going to be the case. But overall my mental health is starting to steady out and I can take this time to keep looking after myself and get my life straightened out the best I can.
My boyfriend and I have been together for 18 months and I couldn't be happier. He is so supportive and understanding and I could not ask for a better man to spend my life with. Best relationship everrrrr!!!!!
Oh yeah, I have exams these coming weeks! Even though I finished school I have to go back for 5 exams but that's it. No class. No grades. No teachers. I just have to sit my exams and then I'm done for good. So I might be a bit busy with that combined with work but oh well you do what you have to do.
With all this said I think that is all I had to tell you guys. I know this post was nothing special but I hope that it was nice to have a more relaxed text to read from me. I will be back with a proper post next week and I hope you are living your best life.
Lots of love,
Jen xx
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