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'The Real Me' (Poem)

The following is a poem I composed during my Year 9 high school grade. I was approximately 14 years of age. This may trigger some readers!




Nobody knows the real me,

I hide the pain, which stings like a bee.

No one sees the damage dealt,

But I know the I felt.

I feel trapped in a dome,

I only wish to return home.

It's hopeless I'm worthless,

So isolated and helpless.

I feel so much pain,

But I have had nothing to gain.

The sadness and anger turn to a numbing nothing,

I really just want to feel something.

Now all I can do is sit and cry,

I think I'm ready to say goodbye.

Over the years I have come so far,

But now I cannot hide my scar.

And now there is nowhere left to hide,

My only option seems, suicide.

I have no energy left the yelp,

But I really do need some help.

I can no longer listen to the voices in my head,

Because they make me wish I was dead.


I need someone to understand,

So I can beat this and take a stand.

I want to stop being alone,

So now I have decided to pick up the phone.

I tell them my main feeling is 'sad',

I talk for a while, they must think I'm mad.

I went to see someone the very next day,

And now I have decided I need to stay.

Even with help it still hurts,

At points I feel my heart might burst.

Over time I feel better,

And now I'm so glad I met her.

She is my counsellor and she understands the issue,

When I cry she hands me a tissue.

Helps me get back on my feet,

Most helpful lady I will ever meet.

I began to tell people how I feel,

They tell me things to help me heal.

I'm just one in many who suffer,

I'm sorry to say I was a cutter.

What do I have, this is the question,

And the answer to that is depression.

Now people know the real me,

And my pain stings less like a bee.



I hope by sharing this I can show that even from a young age it is important to get the help that is needed before everything builds up. I am really sorry if this triggered anyone and I hope you are all having an amazing day.


Jen x


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